Many was the morning when I went to dedicate my efforts at the end that I felt I should be issuing a formal apology for being such a lame-ass instead. I am so sorry generous teachers and ancestors!
Add to that an upper back injury that has made my yoga more than a little tentative. It forced me to back off on some of the more challenging poses that I had been so enjoying earlier in the summer and thus make me feel like I am not measuring up (again to whom?).
Needless to say, there have been a couple of mornings when I just said "screw it - who needs ya" to whole shebang. But somehow those days sucked even more; felt even more like things were off-kilter. I secretly knew that what was needed was not backing off or slacking off but to press onward, with renewed effort.
This morning I dilly-dallied, had a cup of tea, checked email and finally, when the kids did not give me my needed excuse by getting up and making noise, I finally sat on my pillow.
A little less sucky today.
And on my yoga mat...also less sucky.
Why? Who knows? Just keep pressing onward.